Fortune's Other Face

I went to bed feeling upbeat last night, but woke up with doubts. There were questions in my mind, such as "How can I do the acting thing in Portland when I have no contacts, know no one in the theater scene here?" Then I had quite a panic because I thought I'd missed a shift working. I've started working online part time as a rater for the TOEFL (Test of English as a Foreign Language) writing section. I was looking over my schedule, and saw I was down for four hours on the 21st. In the middle of writing a profound apology to them, I realized that it was for December 21, not November. Whew! But it revealed my state of mind to me--a bit unsettled, still searching for my way. After coffee and leftover Chinese food (Thanks Connie and Jim), I again feel more upbeat. Doubts creep in and then they dissipate, just like dark clouds of nature.